Saturday, 06 August 2011

  • "goodbye"

    Everyone has had to say 'goodbye' at some point in their life or another and my point is approaching soon because I'm headed off to college. I'm not going to say 'goodbye' though because I know at one-point-or-another, there's a high chance that I'll see my friends that I have right now. Whether it's at their honeymoon, at a restaurant, or in their shower - just kidding - I'll make it happen if I really want to see them. So for right now, I'll just say "see ya' later".

    But being absolutely realistic and down to Earth, there's a chance that we may fall out or even forget each other - hopefully not - so I know there's going to be, as my friend Jahan calls it, a 'fuckton' of regret if I don't say what I want to tell them now. Regret is an awful feeling, you must know: that permanent thorn in your face.

    Half of them might be offended because I was such a people pleaser. Half of them much be scared by my strange words and flee the country to avoid me. Half of them may blush or shove me away. Half will realize that this is incorrect math.

    Most of the things I want to say can be said easily. But then there's always one or two speeches that I just can't say because I can't seem to get it out. Even as I daydream about it or rehearse it in front of a mirror whilst stranded, alone, in an office, I can't get past "you.....". The worst thing is that what I have to say to those people are the most important and on top of my priority-list-of-stuff-to-say.

    They're the ones..... that........

    What should I do?



  • people i would - (incomplete list)

    If you haven't discovered JennaMarbles on YouTube, you're missing out. She recently made a video about people she's pretty much go HOMERUN with. Pretty inspiring. The big message, though, is to be completely honest with people, which is something that I've held close to me since @malestop 's last comment on my blog because it seems to make things better.

    But back to JennaMarbles. So perhaps I wouldn't run the diamond with these people, but perhaps dash to first base with.
    • Jenna Marbles
    • Chris Colfer
    • Alan Rickman
    • Daniel Radcliffe
    • Emma Watson
    • Emma Stone
    • Robert Downey Jr.
    • Joseph Gordon-Levitt
    • Leonardo DiCaprio
    • Lady GaGa
    • Katy Perry
    • Matt Tuck
    • Corey Taylor
    • Shane Dawson
    • Ray William Johnson
    • Mila Kunis
    • Ryan Reynolds
    • Brad Pitt
    • You
    • and maybe give or take a few more.
    I want my first kiss to be in the rain. or at least with someone special.


Thursday, 04 August 2011

  • that moment between awake and asleep

    To my absolute horror this morning, I got a text from one of my friends that I was Skyping, which read something along the lines of "You're going to regret shit [today]." And then it dawned on me; when the late hours approach but I'm forcing myself to stay up, there's this tendency to get a little.... 'loose' per se. While I remember bits and pieces of the night, such as me screaming "Ryan Reynolds has nice boobs" and "you're fucking beautiful" to someone which really didn't need to hear that (at least not from me, of all people), I apparently also 'awkwardly flirted' - according to the friend that texted me - with the other person in the conversation. This included, but is not limited to, me declaring that people should back off him and that he had a 'sexy' body.

    I over-reacted a bit at first because the colour drained from my face like the Titanic just sunk again or something. It's not that I really meant those things. Well, I did. But not in a flirty way; in like a friend-kidding way. I would totally not be freaking out if I didn't think he'd take it the wrong way and avoid me as of I were the Black Plague of Summer 2011. Why can't my sarcasm hit people in the face like a freight train? And I don't mean that literally. Sometimes.

  • trippy dream

    One of many, I suppose. A few days ago, I had a dream that I went to a friend's house, where he subsequently ditched me with another friend because a cyclops on a unicycle with an iron rod was chasing me. They went to get pizza.

    Today, I had a dream that I melted a pizza on top of a fire stove, which caused the cheese to drip into the holes where the gas comes out and the entire oven became a mess of bubbly, hot, oil-ness.

    It doesn't really help me case that, in retrospect, some of these dreams represent something that will happen in the future. Perhaps the cyclops-on-a-unicyle one may not com true, but it may one day present itself in real life where I discover that the hideous one-eyed monster symbolized a bumpy part of life which drives away people I bind closely to. Who knows. But I doubt it. However, this morning I tried to make ramen but forgot to place water into the pot to boil. I ended up cooking a metal pot, which started to burn because nothing was there to catch the heat; the pizza in my dream was actually a pot......

Saturday, 30 July 2011

  • that 'second hand' friend

    Definition: That friend you turn to whenever all of your other main friends are gone, asleep, or have dropped off the face of the electronic world.

    I had actually written out a whole story leading up to why I was going to talk about 'second hand' friends, but then I realized that rather than be passive aggressive, I'll face-to-face confront him about it one day. Wait- What? A face to face conversation? In the twenty first century?!? WHAT IS THIS MADNESS? In all seriousness, this needs to be addressed generally because it's been an on-going issue.

    Living in the digital age, it's absolutely hard to realize sometimes that quality dominates over quantity, especially in the area of friendships. Just look at all of those friend whores on Facebook with 2,468 friends; I cannot speak for all of them, but from where I live, it's become a priority to gather friends like some sort of sheep game rather than strengthen existing relationships.

    That's why, I propose a radical change to the world. Wait for it.... wait for it. Let's. Be. HONEST. WOAH. WOAH. GROUNDBREAKING. EARTH SHATTERING. HOLY COW.

    Because people nowadays opt to either keep shut or to put on a poker face in front of everyone, even that irritating bimbo they hate, this phenomenon of 'second hand' friendship happens way too often. Not only is this absolutely rude, especially if you become the second friend, but it just elongates a process of push-pull mental absenteeism in conversations.



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